Dear Mother: Rest In Peace

The day I dreaded my whole life. 

My Mother passed away at 8:13am on September 30th.  She had just turned 78.

She died of complications to her heart. She battled kidney disease for almost 4 months. She suffered greatly and now is at peace.

Life has not been the same since. I think about her constantly.  My regrets. The guilt. The beautiful memories we shared. It’s just too much to bear.

I took 5 days of bereavement, and it wasn’t enough. I can barely eat. I spend most of my time noticing all the things that remind me of her. 

I feel hollow.  I spent all yesterday creating a Celebration of Life dedicated to her.  It was extremely hard to see all those photos.

I miss her so much.  She was my Best Friend.  We talked and texted every day.  She was the first one I called to share good news.

She was the first one I called when I needed advice.

Gosh, my heart is broken.

I pray for healing. I pray for comfort. 

This is going to take a long time to heal.

I know I will see her again in Heaven.  I know she’s happy and at peace with my Lord and Savior. 

“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”

— Psalm 34:18

Reflection

Today, I give my aching heart to God. I may not understand the pain I feel, but I trust that He is holding me close through it. My tears are not forgotten — they are seen, counted, and cared for by the One who loves me most.

Even in my sadness, I will look for moments of peace — a quiet sunrise, a kind word, a memory that makes me smile. Healing won’t happen all at once, but each day, I believe God is gently stitching my heart back together.

Prayer

Dear Lord,

My heart feels heavy, and the ache of losing my Mother is still so deep. Please be my comfort when I am lonely, my strength when I am weak, and my peace when the pain feels too much to bear.

Help me feel Your presence in the quiet moments and remind me that my mother rests safely in Your love.

Heal me, Lord — day by day, moment by moment.

In Jesus’ name, Amen.